So many changes have taken place in my life in the last six months. Really, I am overwhelmed at the direction my life has taken - so much so that it is hard to put into words. Today, I simply marvel at it all.
If you told me a year ago that by now I will have lost 130 pounds, gone back to work full time, stopped homeschooling, taken steps to end my marriage, moved out of the house and be dating a woman, I would never have believed you. Are you as shocked as I am?
The journey has been fairly simple, though not easy. I'm finding my way to me. I realized a few months ago that I've spent much of my life being someone's daughter, someone's student, someone's employee, someone's wife, and someone's mother, following conventional expectation, that I forgot to figure out what and who I was and what I wanted. My friend Cindy was telling me about her mother who was visiting for a few days. Her mother and father had been married 58 years! Cindy was ordering a pizza and asked her mother what she wanted on the pizza, to which mom replied, "I don't know. I've always ordered what your father wanted."
Healthy dose of perspective right there. I mean, that isn't to say that my opinion didn't count, or that I was made to feel I didn't matter. Not so. I just usually did what made everyone else happy. Such is my way.
And so, this new journey continues.
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